Saturday, July 31, 2004

I'm tired. I went to bed at 9 PM last night and woke up at 4. Then Chance and I went to waffle house & had hash browns. Yum. Then I came home and slept for a bit and then got woken up and helped some people in my church move. Then I came home... now I'm tired, but I don't think I want to go back to sleep... I work 1-close today, then I'm probably going to go to Chance's tonight.

Did you get the money you needed Jessie?

I'm thirsty.

And tired.

And I don't want to work


Oh well. I think I just have the megrims.

Later - Wayne

Friday, July 30, 2004

holy cow... there is no one online or in real life to talk to or hang out with. I'm so incredibly bored. I'm playing guitar so that's okay enough... but I want to do something, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh!!!

Well, I worked today.

and then I came HOME!!! YAY!!!! and now I'm playing guitar! Huzzahh!!!!!!

my friend is supposed to call me tonight (around now) and we might do something, unless she has a GNO with her madre.

I think I might find some food. I'm at least going to go downstairs to play guitar now, though.

Latas - Wayne

You're right. We do. At least I do, lol. Well, last night I went to play volleyball at church after work. Then we went to Sonic afterwards, and that was fun too. I'm really starved, though, so I think I'll go grab some food. I think I should probably shower as well. *sigh*. Work is the bane of my existance!!!


Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Yay! people have blogged and that's happy!

Yesterday was pretty cool... apart from psychos at work (not you Jessie).

Jessie & Nikki came to see me at work, and that was lots of fun, lol. They saw me in my... natural habitat. lol. It's too bad they couldn't do something else, like after work. Oh well, after work I drove straight home, then to Jake's after snagging my gear. We played guitar for about an hour, ate, then drove up to Conway for the Soophie Nun Squad show. It turns out I knew two of the people in the band previous, Eli (bass), and Marilee (vocals/keyboard). That was totally awesome. We had to leave before the last song because Jake had to be home, sadly. Oh well, They had some way awesome songs. Like story time, haha. It was cool, they had a puppet show.

Soophie rocks.

Well, we left conway about 1:30 AM and got to Jake's house, then I went home and fell asleep.

Today I woke up. Lol.

It's 9:36 and I've already got a filling done. yay.

I think I'm hungry and perhaps there is food. Yum. so I'll be back at my computer later. I will probably bring my guitar with me. Yay.


Sunday, July 25, 2004

Nope, it didn't work. Still no blogs :(

Saturday, July 24, 2004

No one has blogged lately. So I'll blog and hope someone will follow suit. I'm playing guitar right now, I just got home from work.

I'm slightly tired. So I might nap.

Or I might call a friend.


The possibilities astound me.

I might(probably) will see Soophie Nun Squad in Conway monday night.

oh, and jessie, I work 11-7 monday.

I'm off tuesday... lame :-p

Oh well.

See yaz later - Wayne

Friday, July 23, 2004

Nope... no block, I've been online well.. all the time. I don't log off.

Just FYI.

Sorry? Sorry means you won't do it again.

If it's something worth having, it's something worth fighting for.
"Never surrender, Never give up"

Trust me.
Or don't.

YOUR choice.

Thursday, July 22, 2004

Cutting yourself hurts

why are the words used to express extreme displeasure offensive? Or why do we not have words to mean what we're feeling?


Can we truely be unchanged by any event? Even awakening in the morning, or sleeping at night... it has some effect on us.

I don't believe I could be unchanged by anything.

Have you ever /listened/ to the first 6 tracks on Eve 6 - Horrorscope? That's what I feel.

Have you ever felt as though your soul was ripped from your chest by the coldness?








No Escape.

Nowhere to run.

Nowhere to hide.



I need someone to talk to, does it show?
Words cannot express the pain I feel.
A pain that's caused, again and again.
It's not the first time.
I know it wont be the last.
There is no language severe enough.
No expletive strong enough.
Words cannot possibly explain.
How much pain there is inside.
Self forgetfulness is the only answer.

"You're getting closer
to pushing me off of life's little ledge
cos I'm a loser
and sooner or later
You know I'll be dead."
-Loser, 3dd.

I think this is possibly the worst feeling I could have about anyone. I honestly do not care. It's not even important enough to take her pictures off my wall. Or out of my wallet. There is /nothing/ I desire to do about it. It's as if the pictures are simply another unnoticed piece of my wall, wallet, wherever. Another unnoticed pixel on my monitor. I could probably change that, if I desired. But I don't right now. And I don't think I will any time soon.

Once I thought she was important. She still is to someone. But to me, it's is effectively as if she ceased to exist. And that's bad. I've never felt this way about anyone before. Usually there's some love left or something. But no.. nothing.


every time it happens
they read more than is there
I think that they're friends
but I guess they just don't care

They leave me in the dust
like some worthless nothing
It's me, that it must
I don't want to feel a thing

Running so fast it's all a blur
get away, as far as fast as I can
it's all because of her
she can't take this kind of man

They're all the same
they stay the cycle
but who's to blame?
if it's mine I will

this goes on forever
at least I don't see an end
forget this.

-Me. And forget it.

Well, at least now I know. So sorry, and never mind.

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

Jessie's not answering... been trying for almost 2 hours or something... I don't think she'll answer, so I'm going to sleep soon... maybe, lol.

Gerr to you, jessie! :-P

I was thinking about calling you last night, jessie, but I got busy :-P sorry... I hope maybe nikki called.

I'm Hungry and i have to work soon so I"m going to jet... I hope you had a good day (anyone who reads this actually).

ttyl! - Wayne

Monday, July 19, 2004

Ok Jessie, I'm trying to call you... lol... I just left a message... that you wouldn't get, lol. But you might call me when you're on break or something. That would be nice.

I'm glad you liked "Release"... And probably the biggest reason you can relate is because you inspired it. Heh... ask next time you talk to me and I'll tell you about it.

Heh... fun dream ^_^ lol. Bizarre, but way fun, lol. I think you're almost as crazy as me ;) hehe.

I think I'm going to go get something to drink (probably water) and maybe wait for the phone... either that or play some music.

ttyl - Wayne

Sunday, July 18, 2004

Btw Jessie, it's for you... I have music too... so we'll have to talk soon, let me know your schedule

Ok... the quarter thing... The conversation went something like this...

Wayne sticks a quarter to his forehead
Logan: That's not a quarter, it's a nickel!
Wayne looks at Logan like she's crazy
Wayne: Uhh... it's a quarter
Wayne pulls out a nickel and a dime and sticks them both to his forehead as well, then motions to each
Wayne: Dime, Quarter, Nickel
Logan(or was it Tim?): Don't you mean Nickel, Quarter, Dime?
Wayne again looks at the other like they're crazy, because the tiny one they thought was a nickel...

lol, maybe you had to be there

Actually, Hold On is a decent song... but Chance likes it... so he plays it too much, lol. I'm listening to it right now, just for kicks & giggles... I tried to work on a song for you, Jessie... but I didn't come up with anything great... :-P

If you want me to put one of your poems to music, I could probably do that ^_^ I'm pretty good at doing that... heh.

I can think of some psychological reasons you wouldn't be able to hang up on me... I'm thinking of giving you a buzz, but you're probably at work so your phone should be off... And I don't know if you can get messages yet :-P lol.

If you're thinking of seeing someone... you could see my dad ^_^ He's where I get any type of good psychobabble from, lol.

I like to cuddle too... I really don't care who it's with either. I have no problem with a girl I know even fairly well just putting an arm around me. *shrugs* I don't know, whatever that might mean, lol. But I enjoy just being close to people (by people I mean girls).


Lying here in my bed
thoughts are runnin in my head

I'm just sitting on the edge
reaching out to touch
something out of reach
I don't know what it is
but I think it's something good

My world is spinning round.
on this shifting shakey ground.
My mind is so confused
at this static that I choose

I know you've heard it all
You don't want any more
But this stuff is in my mind
Emotions crashing down

I'm not careful so I fall
It happens again,
again and again
and I don't know when it ends

it feels so good

It's like I'm outside looking in
I see this shell
I don't know when
I'll escape from this hell

-Wayne J. Werner -10:05 PM CST July 18, 2004

Saturday, July 17, 2004

I agree, Jessie, Crossroads is an awesome Bon Jovi album.

Right now I'm listening to Daft Punk - Digital Love

I saw I, Robot today... that's an awesome movie. This /shouldn't/ spoil the ending, but Will Smith saves the world... again. Lol

then we (Logan, Tim, and I) went to Logan's house where we got cake & ice cream... MMmmm Mmm, it was good. Then we conversated for a while, then we (Tim and I) came home.

Welp... I think I'm done with my posting for now... not much to say... forgot to get my schedule, again :-P

oh well.

Later - Wayne

Friday, July 16, 2004

And now for something completely different:

Sherlock Holmes, Geologist.

Watson: What kind of rock is this?
Sherlock: Sedimentary, my dear watson!


Waking up in the middle of the night
All these thoughts begin to take flight

Wonderin who loves me, and wonderin who cares
wondering if someone will decide to share

Why do I have these insecurities
Why do I have thoughts like these
Life rolls on and takes me with it
It doesn't matter if I hate or love it

All those loved and all those lost
On my mind like a winters frost

cold white webbing across my mind
hiding what it is I want to find


waiting out this winter weather
huddled in my imitation leather

spring will come and free my mind
and then I'll find what I'm looking for


-Hold On-

Hold on
Through the pain

Hold on
Through the sadness

Hold on
When life gets to you

Hold on
Through thick and thin

Hold on
Until the end

Hold on.

-Wayne J. Werner.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

Hey look, I'm the same bunny as you Jessie. Lol

you suck, and that's sad
you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit

which happy bunny are you?
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Okay, back when Nintendo was citing the reasons for swapping to disks, one of the arguments was "it will be cheaper". Games are STILL 59.99. They haven't changed. So please tell me what the HECK is up with that?? Freakin pirates!

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Wow... Jessie took a lot of quizes, lol. I have to leave for work in 30 minutes so I can't, sadly, lol. Though I've taken most of them before. I was gay bear, lol. One of my friends was bondage bear, lol. It's pretty funny. I should go re-take some of those quizzes. I'm hungry. ttyl - Wayne

p.s. remindme to rant on video games.

Monday, July 12, 2004

I took another quiz, lol.


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Also, I wonder if Jessie is back and how her trip was... and that she updates her blog (hint hint!) - Wayne

Say Anything...

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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whee! While you're at it... Which one of my toes are you?

and now, I get ready for work... I had a weird dream.


Sunday, July 11, 2004

Logan is going to be EXACTLY like her mother when she gets old. I'm not kidding at all. And I'm going to be there to laugh. Lol.

Also, I think I"m hungry, but I"m not sure about food. Oh well.

Broken Saints is VERY cool. Totally freaky. But cool. I'm almost done with it. Jessie would enjoy it. I think. I'll hopefully finish the episodes in less than this week. Maybe even tomorrow, who knows?


Monday, July 05, 2004

Today I went to Lake Willastien to have a barbacue with my family, and that was fun, then I went to Logan's house to hang out with her and Jake, and that was fun. We went to Savers, then to see Spiderman 2, then back to her house where we got fed, then we went to the park, then went home. It's fun actually /doing/ things with people. Then I went to the Young Single Adults Family Home Evening, and that was cool. We played a game called 'signs', and I explain it, but I don't really feel like it, lol. I just came home now.. I work tomorrow... and I'm bummed that's happening, lol.

Anyways, I'll ttyl - Wayne

Sunday, July 04, 2004

it's sad when _I_'m the one who updates his blog the most out of anyone. Because I don't do it all that much. Last night I saw "Paycheck" and it's a pretty good movie. It has some language... a few short nudity scenes (less than you see a the local pool), but all in all, it was pretty good. I want to see "Big Fish", but I don't want to see it by myself... I kinda wanna invite someone over to eat & watch. By someone, I mean a girl, lol. So if you want to come over, have some food, and watch "Big Fish", drop me a line, lol.

ttyl - Wayne

Thursday, July 01, 2004

We have the choice to fight the currents of life and hold onto our friends, or to be swept away into the cold darkness of time, missing opportunities and missing our friends.


Work Today. That was OK. Allison was there. We both know Sharon. And that's cool. She said she might try and get online before 2 AM. We'll see.

So Jessie likes my song. I kinda do too. It was pretty depressing... but hey.. maybe it wasn't. I don't know. I'm half asleep right now. I might try programming some soon... I wish gilgamesh was working right so it would route stuff to my box :-p

Oh well.

Captain Obfuscation, Out!